It's All Good

This post really has nothing to do with health, fitness, or eating well. Maybe eating well.

Sometimes when it's no good, it's all good. Today was a mindfulness battle. I kept feeling overwhelmed today and it's easy to throw in the towel, so to speak, and slip into mindless eating or mindless not eating. Today was different though. I kept taking a moment to drag my mind back to something in the present. Washing the fork. Washing the spoon. Hanging the blinds. Tapping on the keyboard. I also stuck to the meal plan as a way to be mindful of the taste of the food in my mouth.

By the time 5:30 rolled around, instead of feeling drained and overwhelmed, I felt refreshed. This is what Jon Kabat-Zinn talks about with how he wants his employees to feel working at the Mindfulness Stress Reduction Clinic. I was more productive than if I has been entrenched in worry or anxiety. I feel a lot better after working on this practice. Even though it took hours, it worked.

I think I had a great workout. I can't believe how much I sweat on the treadmill today. We did weights first, and wow, that really started me on a different track. I'm not sure if it was expending my energy before walking or if it was that i felt like I was working more. I sweat a lot though and felt great after my mile. It was 19 minutes and something seconds. I'm still now sure how I'll get to 3 miles in 50... but I'm holding that goal in awareness.

It felt amazing that John noticed something different about me today. I asked him what he noticed, and he said he thinks it's everything. Maybe mindfulness is a slimming look for me. Or maybe all this work is changing things in ways that I have a hard time seeing. I notice where my eyes fall when I look at myself. I see every flaw and imperfection, and there is a lot. So I'm not seeing the places that are changing as much as I'm seeing the places that aren't changing.

I wonder what John's personality type is. I think he is probably more intuitive than sensory since he noticed that something was different without being able to pinpoint exactly what was different. I think he is probably introverted with a slight extroverted streak. I think probably more I for sure though. Between thinking or feeling, I'm really not sure. It's usually pretty easy for me to pick that one out in someone, but with him it's not. I certainly have respect for his mind and his thought process. I'm gonna go with borderline between the two tending toward the F side. And perceptual and judgmental... that's another hard one. I'm gonna go with J though because of the role he is playing in my life to help me reign things in. He does seem to have a system of how things should work in his head and that is much more of a J trait. So what does that get us to. INFJ. How did this end up being the blog of analyzing my trainer's meyers briggs type? For sure, Idealist Counselor. If that's the case our relationship pair is Advisor: each has an area of insight the other lacks. Sounds exactly right to me as his insight always surprises me.