Heat Something

I'm not really sure what happened today. I thought I was doing well. It was a bit of a rough day from the start with minor things burnt eggs. I walked 2 miles at a slower pace than yesterday, but really pushed myself in the second mile. My first clue could have been how warm I felt while walking on the treadmill. I thought I was doing well with my fluid intake. I just felt warm though. I figured it might have been a temperature difference in the building, but I'm now thinking it was my body. After the walk I did laundry. That's when I really started feeling awful. I felt crampy, nauseated, hot, clamy, and dizzy. I ate and had an apple and crackers before lunch. I kept drinking a lot of water, but I kept feeling worse. Finally, while I was shopping it hit me, the first of the stomach cramps. I went home and ended up curled on the floor for awhile with stomach and body cramps, a headache, nausea, and foggy thinking. Thank goodness for Russell and John's advice. I drank some electolyte fluid and ate a chocolate bar (Attune.) After a couple of hours of resting in a cool bed with a wet towel on my head and neck I started to feel better.

I got dizzy one other time after working out, but it was nothing like this. It really crept up on me and hit me hard. I still feel very thirsty. I've had 1.5 liters of water, 2 quarts of electrolyte fluid (zero cal Powerade), and I'm still drinking more water. I can't quench the thirst. I'm exhausted and still warm though, so I think I will try to get some sleep.

Of course, I feel bad for this heat episode. I feel like I shouldn't have done this. I should done a better job. I have the thoughts that: I'm weak, I'm stupid, I'm a burden on the world, All I do is annoy people, I should knock it off. It'd be a nice time to apply a little non-judgment and forgiveness to myself right now I think. It was almost 100 degrees outside today.