Rocked It!

Today was an amazing day. When I woke up this morning, I was sure that I was going to have a crappy day. Goes to show you what I think I know. When I went to put on my bra, I had to clasp it on the middle set of hooks. (I don't know how else to describe it.) I'm shrinking! Despite my out-of-whack emotions I kept on top of my eating (except for the AM snack) and I drank tons of water.

I stopped by to see John at the gym around noontime. I felt like it was important for me to make a repair for some things I did when I was feeling pretty out of it the night before. It really had more to do with keeping my emotions regulated than anything. (It's always all about me.) I did feel much better afterward and that's when the awesomeness began.

I felt majorly frumpy today. My pants felt huge and were very baggy. I was annoyed that I didn't put on a belt this morning. Then it hit me, "Oh yeah, I'm shrinking!"

I was able to actually let go of the anger and frustration I felt at work by getting totally mindful and active. What do you know, being skillful worked! I had a very effective day and was ultra-excited for Turbo Kick.

When I went to change into my clothes for class I noticed that I was able to pull my pants halfway up my body. Granted, they are pretty stretchy, I don't remember having to pull them that high before to feel like they weren't falling off. Then when I walked, I was annoyed that the bottom of the pant leg was shifting around on my calf. Now that definitely didn't happen before! Oh yeah, I'm shrinking!

I ran into John on my way into class. Always motivating.

Then I got to class and totally rocked it! I stood on the opposite side of the room to see how it felt to be in a different corner. (That is a pretty big deal for me.) The instructor noticed that I did the lunges with the jumps this time. (I've been practicing!) That made me feel soooo good. Midway through class the two ladies in front of me started gabbing. They were complaining about the flab underneath their arms when they punched. Oh hell no. I have more flab than both those old crabs combined. I didn't want to hear it. So I just thought as loud as I could, "If you don't like your arms shut your mouth and start punching!" (Ignoring them was big deal for me. Listening to other people have judgments about themselves is a huge trigger for me. Today I was able to separate myself from it and call it crap.) During turbo I was able to do the jacks! For real! I was so excited when I was able to do them that I gave it all my energy to go as long as I could. It was a total act of mentally willing my body to keep moving, and it worked. Then came the dreaded crunch-time! I usually do regular crunches with my legs at an angle with my feet on the wall. (Beginner-style) But I was trapped by 2 people in front of me and no wall behind me. So, I had to do the regular ab work. And OMG... I didn't do too bad! I couldn't do everything. But I was able to do some things! Something new to practice.

So today I went from feeling pretty worthless in the AM to feeling amazing right now. What a difference 12 hours of skillful mindfulness practice makes!