Kaia Flow

Yoga was exactly what my body needed this morning. And a moment of mindfulness was exactly what my mind needed. This morning was one of those days, when I wake up feeling anxious and disconnected. Nothing felt quite right this morning and it was difficult to accept. When I got to Kaia I felt like I was heading down the road of dysregulation. I didn't really want to be there today. So I took a couple of minutes to bring my focus back into my body before class began. I focused on the feel of the air on my skin and on the feel of my body in contact with the floor. I know feeling confused makes me anxious. I think I felt confused about the detox and meal plan "suggestions." I felt frustrated that reading the literature provided wasn't much help. It also made me infinitely grateful that I didn't walk into Kaia without first having a good base established through the work I did with John. I can see how this could been very frustrating if I was coming into fitness for the first time. I think for people who are more people-people it would be more inviting, but for me it can feel quite intimidating. I have grown to love group fitness over time and love observing (and occasionally participating) in the interactions of the group. But if this was my first exposure to it I think I would have felt quite lost.

Carry has been an amazing support in helping me to not feel so lost with this new perspective. It must be a lot of work to field the questions from the whole bunch if everyone has as many questions as I do.

Tomorrow is going to be intense. I'm excited and nervous for tomorrow, my second Double-D this week. If my knee cooperates, I'll be doing Kaia at 5:30 am and Turbo Kick at 5:30 pm. Maybe I will feel a bit more connected to my being tomorrow. That would be nice.