Day 1: Goals

Today is day one. The first day with the trainer. We talked about goals I'm going to set for myself on this journey. Coming up with the goals was a difficult task. I was so nervous to go in today. And even as I began, I had the intense urge to quit. There was something else though, excitement. If I didn't want things to change, I wouldn't be here. It's terrifying and exhilarating. Something new he said, well here I am.

Goal #1
I want to ride my bike to work and the store on a regular basis without becoming exhausted. I miss riding a bike. Bike riding was my favorite activity when I lived in California. I loved seeing places you don't see from the car. I loved the freedom of going wherever I wanted, even off the paved road. I'd love to do this again.

1. Begin by coming to the gym and keeping appointments.

Goal #2
I want to have strong arms that look good when I wear a tank top. I don't want to compare myself to an unattainable image, but I love the look of strong arms. I want to show off my arms and not be ashamed of the scars. I want to wear a tank top again and feel good about myself in one!!

1. Remembering that what you've done and where you've been if a healthy and real reminder of where you are headed today.

Goal #3
I want to lose 100 pounds and be closer to my ideal weight. I notice that I'm afraid to set big goals because it feels like I am more likely to fail. The thought of not setting any goals certainly feels easier, but will likely lead to no change from how things are now. The milestones are going to be very important for me, especially when the goals feel so big.

1. Results take time to measure.
2. Everything that you do or don't do is an investment of and for today... all that is required is to try!

Goal #4
I want to feel less aches and pains from tension and stress. I want to feel less aches and pains in my joints and arches of my feet. I spend so much time in my chair at work, not moving, and being stressed. I liked how my neck and back felt when I was exercising them in physical therapy. I felt less pain over time and slept better.

1. Find inserts to fit shoes to support the arches.
2. BREATHE!

Goal #5
I want to keep my blood sugar and blood pressure at healthy levels. I don't want to give into hopeless thinking that getting diabetes is inevitable. I want to stay as healthy as possible for as long as possible. I want to have a healthy way of life both mentally and physically. I want to find balance in the things I do in this life: in my mind, with my weight, with what I eat, and in the things I do.

1. Exercise and healthy eating habits.