The comforting thing is that this is likely going to be the worst part of my day. I sat here for the last 15 minutes breathing and visualizing a non-traumatizing salt experience. As soon as I took my first sip I thought, "Oh god this sucks." Half way through. Breathe. I hate the damn salt! Oh I'm dizzy. That was a wave of huge emotion there. Maybe I better go back to breathing. My hands are clammy. That's the fear doing it's thing. Breathe. I think it's time for Enchanted. It's done! Oh my stomach hurts and every fear reaction has been triggered. Now I can relax and let the salt to it's good work. Back to Enchanted. Breathe.
Wow. Today feels totally different. I feel constantly hungry this morning. I wonder if my metabolism is running today or something. I'm not having any big cravings for food or anything, I just feel the feeling of hunger pain in my stomach. It's only mildly unpleasant. I'm going to have plenty of water and lemonade this morning.
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Today has been the most difficult day so far. I felt low energy and constantly hungry. I came across a piece of old bread and the smell was overwhelmingly wonderful. I had to refocus my attention on something else until the insane carb craving faded. I ended up drinking 10 lemonades today. I hope tomorrow is easier.
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