A Seedier Kind of Metaphor

I don't think I could have predicted where my life was going to end up after taking that first step, back in May 2010, to change my life. I'm not sure that I really thought of that first step as life-changing. It took all my energy to walk into John's office at the gym; I wasn't thinking about what my life would be like a year later! Now here I am, the same Carmen, but totally different. I've been in a nice equilibrium lately and have been enjoying trying to figure out what my new moving target is these days. Life has demanded some of my attention lately, and I've been happy to attend to some important things. Now it's time to draw my energies back in to start spinning a new circle.

Circles. Everything in my life is well defined by sets of interconnected circles. Like the olympic rings, but swirlier. I've been reconnecting with myself in new ways. I'm learning that eating well is a pleasurable luxury. I still have some more work to do on weight loss, but this peek into life in stasis has been nice. Coconut oil makes every treat rich with a sinful silk texture. Organic maple syrup is intensely delicious. And organic cream cheese is like nothing I have ever tasted. If this is what I have to look forward to more often when I reach the end of my weight-loss journey, I can't wait to get back to sweating!

Now, my new goal is to learn to grow my own food. At least as much as possible living in a north-facing apartment with an enclosed patio. Once I get the community gardens up and running I will have much more space to play in. I have seedlings galore in flats putting down roots into various mediums. Everything is an experiment. Vermiculite? Perlite? Potting soil? Worm castings? This is all new to me! I'm mixing it up with little worry about what will survive and what won't I'm going to pay attention to what works and revise what doesn't. I have some seedlings awaiting true leaves before transplanting. I transplanted some too early. I have willow tonic constantly brewing and worm castings waiting to become a tea. I'm excited to learn what works. I have Dr. Bronner's diluted for a soap insecticide until I can get the Safer Soap. I have weather blankets for the delicate sprouts outside. I have organic fertilizer and mycorrhyzae ready to go. I hope I get food! I have never been this immersed in getting these little things to grow. I always got frustrated and gave up. Now I have more information and tons of advice and help to get going. I'll just keep planting, something has to grow!

Kinda like life, huh.