I decided that there is something significantly different between today and yesterday. And to commemorate this moment, I decided it would be good to reopen this blog. My life has sure seen some ups and downs since I gave up on having a regular exercise regime.
These are no small detours. It was for very good reason that I looked for alternatives to the way I care for myself after getting very sick with lyme. After the symptoms cleared, I went through a period of doubt that I was actually better because of the notorious way lyme relapses. When I had become satisfied that I was, in fact, "over" lyme, had only a little bit of time before I received the diagnosis that I have diabetes.
Here I am again. Making plans for better ways to care for my body- and thereby care for my mind and spirit as well. I'm giving myself the permission to let go of my suffering. And I'm going to work on getting clear about the causes of health and happiness.
I know I have it in me to be well. That is what lyme taught me. I have learned a lot since working with my trainer in 2010. And this time I will be thinking about nutrition and rest very differently. I don't want to starve my body and overwork myself to fatigue. I want to do what feels right and natural for my body and find a balance between stillness and movement.
I found my rhythm with the rope today. I am getting used to the coordination necessary between my hands and feet- and learning to trust myself to know when to jump. Instead of stopping because I'm getting caught in the rope, I'm stopping because I'm getting winded or cramped. This too will change day by day and I will be able to jump for longer and with more energy. I'm impressed with this start- given the length of time I have been away from working like this. At first I was coughing a lot. But it seems that I have cleared the cobwebs from my windpipes- because that isn't happening any more. I'm starting out with 1 and 2 of the basic bounces for the first few minuets- then progressing to working on more continuous jumping until I mess up or am in pain. Once I'm a little stronger I'm sure it will become even more fun as I can work on learning other moves. For now I'll work with the basic bounce and walking to stretch out cramped muscles.
I'll work on some new goals and update my photos as well... for documentation sake.
To the recognition of something different.
